Peace out

I can't believe I'm feeling so jaded right now. Like I've overworked myself. My body is aching for massages. Full body massage. My boyfriend keeps telling me I work too much. Which I seriously don't think so. I don't know. I still like my work though.

Tonight I was dying for his attention. Mind you, we are 15 hours apart. The only time I get to catch him is when he just got to work, and at the same time I'm about to go to bed. Gosh I just want to take the next flight to California right now. But I won't. Cos I am still sane and sensible. My friends don't seems to think the same though. They think I'm playing with fire. But I'll show you babe. We both are in this relationship for real.

Ugh, I'm so cranky and weary. When I was showering 5 minutes ago, my mind was thinking of work stuff. And I snap that thought off. I know how to control myself. Or my mind, if that matters. My boss told me she thinks I'm really good in motivating myself. I don't need her to push me, but I do all the work. Which is half true. While the other half of me hoping for the real motivation from her. Up my salary dammit, I got paid peanuts while I work the hardest yo.

So tonight I've resorted to apple flavoured incense. Something about the smoke calms my mind. Kinda reminds me of temple though. But I like the smell of temple so it's pretty okay. I know I sound super drama today. Must be too much of reality tv.