My words are jumbled up

After spending the whole night in emotional shock state of mind, the chill pill has finally dissolved into my blood stream as I hum to all Joanna Wang's songs (hum sebab tak tahu lyrics tapi lagu dier tu memang jiwang gila babi hehe).

I rasa time time cam ni kan, all I need is a few good conversation and some time to think and reflect. Kena lah prioritize sikit life ni. Dah dekat bulan satu ni, suddenly I got news about my production company in Singapore that I was put on hold. Sebab-sebab internal issue ngan ministry, they said. So I gotta carry on my Plan B, which is to embark on another website hopping, job-searching journey. Pretty grueling, but I gotta do it now before every other graduate does the same.

I was thinking to myself, cam mana lah, bila i dah gi spore, how am i going to leave sayang sayang i semua kat sini? Bila fikir pun sedih gak :( There's so much we've been through together; the countless mamak sessions, heart-to-hearts, crying confessions, arguments, spontaneous trips and of course our raving Lapsap spirit every weekend. I'm glad I have you all sayangs. Not trying to be mushy mushy here, but I mean my words.

As for all my seasonal friends, some dah tak contact, some contact lagi tapi cam dah takde hati nak maintain friendship. Remember the guy I blogged about, the one who decided to just ignore me one day? Bajee if you ever read this one day, I want to apologize if I ever did anything wrong that could lead to such action of yours. Memang dead sincere suka sangat kawan ni, but things didn't work out I guess. So I made a bold decision to delete you off my friends list, cos it was too much of a heartache to see you online everyday. Yes, I value friendship but I had to do something.

So I decided to move on.

Today, dah sepanjang hari I sakit perut, entah nape. Gastric kot. Tapi bukan nya tak makan. But my point is, masa masa cam ni la I rasa cam takde siape untuk I nak manja. No one even cared to reply my text la damn emo i tell you. In the end, I cooked maggi jer jugak. haha.tapi dah papa kedana kenalah bear with it.

I was itching to go out so badly, man. Among banyak banyak kawan, I nak terfikir jer nak keluar ngan kawan kawan Ying, si mutt dan si fidz. Tapi tak reply pun. Tak pe, tak pe. Skrang kita tgh plan nak gi Genting. I memang want to go, but damn broke! But think think, all we have is now, I think I'm going to make Lynn my boyfriend untuk satu hari lah heeeeee.

If you people ever finish reading this post, I would just like to declare, yeap, this is the most fucked-up post ever. Sebab I dah emo satu hari, I don't care already lah. Sukahati I lah. Tak nak baca udah.

Cheerio! :D