At times like this i just wish there's someone to hold on to sleep. Good night all.
2009-11-26
2009-11-22
I have a question.
Dear all,
I have a mind boggling situation at hand. First fact, a friend whom I 'thought' I was pretty close to, decided to cut me off, completely.
No there was no fighting or any sort of argument involved. Heck, the last conversation was about white water rafting and sun burn. Now I'm left in the dark, thinking of every possible situation that could led to this horrible ending.
Second fact, even though I told myself to get hold of myself and forget bout it cos what are friends for if you can't even open up to me, but the whole thing kept repeating in my head, it's driving me insane.
Where's the trust in the world when I keep believing in something that's not. Do me a favour, tell me the truth. Thank you.
Regards,
The confused mind boggled blogger
I have a mind boggling situation at hand. First fact, a friend whom I 'thought' I was pretty close to, decided to cut me off, completely.
No there was no fighting or any sort of argument involved. Heck, the last conversation was about white water rafting and sun burn. Now I'm left in the dark, thinking of every possible situation that could led to this horrible ending.
Second fact, even though I told myself to get hold of myself and forget bout it cos what are friends for if you can't even open up to me, but the whole thing kept repeating in my head, it's driving me insane.
Where's the trust in the world when I keep believing in something that's not. Do me a favour, tell me the truth. Thank you.
Regards,
The confused mind boggled blogger
2009-11-20
Future Manfriend : Part I
Forgive me God, for I have skipped two classes today, so I might as well use my precious morning to write about (drumrolls please..)
Ten Things I Look for in my future Manfriend
(because I'm through with boys lol)
Number One : The looks category
Okay I'm going to be honest cause if you know me well enough, none of my past relationships guys are lookers (no offense exes!). Not that I don't dig cute boys, I do! :) But I value personality over looks. So as long as they don't eat their boogers (eww), no freaky fetish and has a normal sense of fashion, I'm fine with that. Just to make things clear, I definitely would not date a guy who wears neon skinny jeans and wears a fedora to watch a movie.
Number Two : Character aka Personality
Who doesn't like charming men? But too charming, guys may come across as flirtatious. There must be a right balance at character. I personally adore men who can speak up for themselves. Men who have their own thoughts and opinions. Future world leader. Personality that shines out, distinguishing them from other mortal huahahaha. But seriously, I dig guys with their own personality. :)
Number Three : Language-compatible
I have violated this rule before and dated a none-English speaking man and look where the relationship led to? Well after a month or two of using Google Translator, the relationship went right to heaven.
I'm fine if you do not share my mother tongue. Well, as long as you can order Char Kuey Teow, extra si ham from the hawker stall uncle, I'm a happy girl already :) Funny thing, this reminded me that I had a friend Sam who dated a Thai girl who barely speaks any English and all I see is her posting cryptic messages on his wall saying "I miss you kateruk joob joob". (All to hoping Sam doesn't read my blog but kudos Sam for landing a hot chick. Well you don't need much English on bed so that'll do lol.)
Number Four : Musically inclined
Not a compulsory point but this is about what I look in my future manfriend so I can put in whatever plus points that I like ;) I can't play any instrument for shit, though I remember playing the recorder was fun, I had the whole music note figured out for 'My Heart Will Go On'. Men who can play instruments are very impressive! :) Not asking much but should be able to play like him :
Number Five : Men that value own space
Because I value mine. I got a comment last time, saying I'm very clingy but it's strange cos I am not those clingy girlfriends at all. Maybe in the beginning of the relationship I would seems clingy but any given relationships start off like that, isn't it? The constant 'I'm thinking of yous' and the flirty texting? No?
Okay I've reached number five and I couldn't think of another five right now but I've given myself a year off (or more lol) from relationships so I have plenty of time to figure out the other five points. It's going to storm in a bit so I have to log off now.
Adios!
The lazy three musketeers
Somehow the last semester of my university life could be described in one word, 'Lazy'. I do not know whether this only applies to my gang (yes that include Ms Ellphwhy and Ms Lynn) or every other undergraduates that are going through the last semester of their studying life.
Just like last night, Pei Yee said to me, "Please go to class tomorrow, don't ponteng! See you!" and she went to bed while I went out for a quick mamak session with Sue Lynn.
Before heading home at 230am, Sue Lynn asked, "Can I don't go tomorrow?" and I said "No, please don't be lazy! Tomorrow's class is too important not to attend!".
This morning, I woke up at 755am and I went, "Oh fuck I'm late for class!" before drifted (fyi : drifted means uncontrollable urge to doze off ,not intentional!) back to sleep again.
At 920am, I got a text message from Lynn saying, "Chel, are you and Pei Yee in class?" and that's how I knew all three of us didn't make it for the 8am class this morning.
:) Gooooood lah us.
Just like last night, Pei Yee said to me, "Please go to class tomorrow, don't ponteng! See you!" and she went to bed while I went out for a quick mamak session with Sue Lynn.
Before heading home at 230am, Sue Lynn asked, "Can I don't go tomorrow?" and I said "No, please don't be lazy! Tomorrow's class is too important not to attend!".
This morning, I woke up at 755am and I went, "Oh fuck I'm late for class!" before drifted (fyi : drifted means uncontrollable urge to doze off ,not intentional!) back to sleep again.
At 920am, I got a text message from Lynn saying, "Chel, are you and Pei Yee in class?" and that's how I knew all three of us didn't make it for the 8am class this morning.
:) Gooooood lah us.
2009-11-16
How not to love them?
Beautiful people, don't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened. But honestly, I'm SOOOO going to miss all of you!
Toodles! :D
2009-11-15
In for the kill
On my most played playlist.
La Roux's simply awesome. It's a electropop duo band, but of course, the band is better known for the wind-blown redhead singer. I've heard 'In for the kill' a dozen of times in Barsonic, usually Blink would play this for the last song but this song never gets old. Like wine, songs like this gets better. :)
La Roux's simply awesome. It's a electropop duo band, but of course, the band is better known for the wind-blown redhead singer. I've heard 'In for the kill' a dozen of times in Barsonic, usually Blink would play this for the last song but this song never gets old. Like wine, songs like this gets better. :)
I'm going in for the kill,
I'm doing it for the thrill,
I'm hoping you'll understand,
And not let go of my hand.
2009-11-10
Fly me to the moon
Malam yang emo sendirian.
Work is pilling and I can't focus. I think I'm upset at myself :( I'm looking for that one thing, I have no idea what yet, be it a song, or a company or a book (no time to do homework but got time for book? meh lei geh) that could sharpen(sharpen?really?) my focus for now.
I wish someone could order me around abit.
It's late at night, I should be sleeping but I slept too much in the afternoon, I don't want to waste my life sleeping away, you know what I mean?
Aiyo i think i just spent the last one hour downloading songs. But it was very worthwhile cos now I've got the whole album of Joanna Wang whom reminds me very much of Norah Jones and Zee Avi. I don't know how famous is Joanna but I like her style. Come to think of it, my taste in music changed distinctively heading towards either Brit rock or indie rock or jazz/blues/folk music.
Work is pilling and I can't focus. I think I'm upset at myself :( I'm looking for that one thing, I have no idea what yet, be it a song, or a company or a book (no time to do homework but got time for book? meh lei geh) that could sharpen(sharpen?really?) my focus for now.
I wish someone could order me around abit.
It's late at night, I should be sleeping but I slept too much in the afternoon, I don't want to waste my life sleeping away, you know what I mean?
Aiyo i think i just spent the last one hour downloading songs. But it was very worthwhile cos now I've got the whole album of Joanna Wang whom reminds me very much of Norah Jones and Zee Avi. I don't know how famous is Joanna but I like her style. Come to think of it, my taste in music changed distinctively heading towards either Brit rock or indie rock or jazz/blues/folk music.
Her album "Start from here"
Okay la I feel alot better already. Got sudden crave for Baileys somemore! Kei lah! Let me taste her Baileys with milk and it was so darn good! I might go get a bottle and keep heee. But for now me thinks sleep is the answer. Cheerio loves! :)
